I heard some very profound words tonight from God.
"I miss you, Dawn…"
and I just sat, silent, questioned, and then I cried.
Why are they so profound?
As someone who is an extremely busy person, living an extremely busy life, doing a lot of things - good things! I work, I’m in full time ministry, I volunteer, I do additional work and freelance pro bono jobs, I attend Life Group and Cell groups and run a discipleship meeting with my youth kids. In the worlds eyes, I’m doing lots of good stuff. Even in the churches eyes, I think most people would say ‘yes, she’s doing a lot of good things!’
But that’s exactly the point. I’m always doing. I’m always doing something, doing this, doing that, doing good things for people, doing good things for God, doing good things for myself even.
But I never have time to stop ‘doing' and just 'be' with God anymore.
Gone are the days when I’d just take a couple hours and spend time listening to worship songs that speak to my heart, and actually be soaked in worship and the power of His word and prayer. Times when I would just go walk around and marvel at the beauty He created, enjoy the outside, take my camera and go on walks with God and take pictures of His creation. I don’t spend much time on my knees, with my face to the ground crying and being soothed by Him. I don’t spend much time in the joy of the Lord, laughing and smiling anymore either. I’m too busy for that. I’m too busy doing ministry and reaching out to people to tell them about this Jesus guy. I’m too busy talking about Jesus, so I don’t have time to be with Jesus.
As I sat and stilled myself tonight during our corporate prayer time (House of Prayer), Abba you hit me with a ton of bricks, those profound words. I had never thought about how you might miss me, and how I might of missed you in all my busyness. I’m too busy doing all this great stuff for you, to remember that you love me more than you love what I do. After all, you never needed me to do all that stuff. You could do it perfectly, with or without me.
So, thank You. Thank You for slowing my life down, even if for just a second, that I might hear You and be reminded.
Abba, I miss You too. Let’s hang out some more k?
Ah yes there are so many things to write about BUT! I am leaving to go to BALI in just a couple more hours! WHOA. God is crazy good =)
Bali is one of those places that I never even thought I would have the privilege of visiting, Thank You Jesus for this blessing!
I’m going over there with 4 others & a baby (Baby Miah!) for a week long CMA (Christian Missionary Alliance) conference - it’s for the missionaries and CMA pastors and families in Indonesia, but the youth pastor of my church was invited (for the 3rd time) to go and head up their youth program for the week, so we’re going along to be a part of that. Amazingness =) I am so glad that we are able to go and connect with people in Indo and to be a part of their life and have them be written into my life story too.
News from outside of this Bali-Excitement-Bubble:
For the past 3 months I’ve been working at Entrance Coffeehouse & Studio which is absolutely an amazing ministry. We’ve become family in this very short period of time - love it! In title, I’m a barista, but in heart it really is family, love of coffee, and ministry. We all belong, we all have a say, we’re all partners working together. I’ve also been doing photography and graphics for them which allows me even more fun and gives me more opportunity to pour out the stuff I love to do. God is good!
The next big move for me is happening this SEPTEMBER. I’ve been accepted into YWAM Montana’s School of Biblical Studies (SBS) So excited for it, I have dreams about being there. Things are crazy =D I have to raise quite a large sum of money though to get to the states, to pay for school and to live there but God has always been faithful and I know He will continue to be so from now until the end of eternity (Good thing eternity can’t end…) More about that later =)
Look out for a Bali post in a weeks time!
A little thing from my devo thingy thing that I did today =)
Psalm 27 - Thursday May 23.
v13-14 “I am still confident of this: I will see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living. Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD.”
This is one of my most favorite Psalms ever. It is a Psalm that pretty much sums up my current walk with God, my heart, and my desire to not be confident in myself or in my own abilities - instead that I would have strength and confidence in God and God alone. None of my confidence comes from myself or is influenced by the things around me - it has to be from GOD only, who is and forever will be my constant source of confidence, strength and joy.
The Thai New Year is upon us!
What’s been happenin’?
Youth Retreat was March 22nd-24th and we had a fabulous time exploring God’s voice and what He says when facing certain issues in our life! I had a small group made up of kids who I don’t usually have in my small group on Friday night Exchanges, and I loved getting to hang out with them over that weekend. I also loved being able to connect with people I don’t usually get to spend a lot of time with, such as my fellow youth leaders.
Youth Retreat tonight!
How exciting =D I hope I have enough energy to last this weekend! XD
Wowowowowow last week at Passport! Closing this Friday!! Kinda surreal… I feel like I’ve only started here! (To be fair, I’ve only been working here since Jan…) but yeah! Exited about the opening of Entrance (which is… ironically, this Friday as well!) I’ll start working there in April though - taking a week off, got so much to do!