My flight leaves at 11.45pm tonight!
It’s hard to believe this is really happening - I still feel somewhat dazed, as if living and functioning in dream-state.
I’ve been thinking recently that this time, it really is harder for me to leave. I think it’s because my past couple years have been so amazing: God has been so good, blessed me in so many ways. I’ve been loved by so many people, and have gained so many rich relationships. I’ve been blessed with new experiences and adventures, and awesome opportunities.
Leaving means that I have to lay that all down.
Leaving means that I have to give it all back to God. No, I’m not giving up on my relationships with my friends, but I’m giving it to God. No, I’m not giving up my job and my ministries, but I’m giving it to God - it was His to begin with! I trust that He will have even more adventures in line for me, and even greater opportunities - not to say the ones I have had are bad. Every moment, every blessing, every adventure, every hardship - it has all shaped me into who I am today. It was all His to begin with, just as I am His.
So, as I get ready to go again to Montana, I look forward to being guided by Him, I look forward to burying myself in His will and His love. I look forward to being blessed by Him, and I look forward to leaning on His strength and power in times if difficulty and weakness.
God is good, He really is, all the time =)
I got my visa today!
This morning I woke up majorly early (but not as early as Kin!) to go to the US Embassy. Traffic was extraordinarily bad! It took me over 2 hours to drive to the embassy (ended up a little late) and so I was quite flustered when I got in there. I had two right hands, forgot a pen, and forgot what my dad’s phone number was in thai (I had to mutter it in Chinese under my breath to translate it before telling the lady!)
But all in all, the process went well. I had all the paperwork I needed and more, and I was out of there in an hour! Yay! And then I treated myself to some hash browns before heading to work =D
Next step: FLIGHTS!
Last thing is: I’ve been writing personal update letters to some people, as well as a financial report of what my needs are and what I have already been blessed with! So if you’d like to know what’s going on, what I am doing next, or a financial report: please let me know in the comments below, or facebook/email me!
A lot has been going on over these past couple weeks. Hard things, good things, and great things! I am blessed to be able to catch up with friends from halfway across the world, and to join them in ministry and reaching out to the people of my country; people who are loved by God!
For more random pictures from my day-to-day life, check out my instagram!
I heard some very profound words tonight from God.
"I miss you, Dawn…"
and I just sat, silent, questioned, and then I cried.
Why are they so profound?
As someone who is an extremely busy person, living an extremely busy life, doing a lot of things - good things! I work, I’m in full time ministry, I volunteer, I do additional work and freelance pro bono jobs, I attend Life Group and Cell groups and run a discipleship meeting with my youth kids. In the worlds eyes, I’m doing lots of good stuff. Even in the churches eyes, I think most people would say ‘yes, she’s doing a lot of good things!’
But that’s exactly the point. I’m always doing. I’m always doing something, doing this, doing that, doing good things for people, doing good things for God, doing good things for myself even.
But I never have time to stop ‘doing' and just 'be' with God anymore.
Gone are the days when I’d just take a couple hours and spend time listening to worship songs that speak to my heart, and actually be soaked in worship and the power of His word and prayer. Times when I would just go walk around and marvel at the beauty He created, enjoy the outside, take my camera and go on walks with God and take pictures of His creation. I don’t spend much time on my knees, with my face to the ground crying and being soothed by Him. I don’t spend much time in the joy of the Lord, laughing and smiling anymore either. I’m too busy for that. I’m too busy doing ministry and reaching out to people to tell them about this Jesus guy. I’m too busy talking about Jesus, so I don’t have time to be with Jesus.
As I sat and stilled myself tonight during our corporate prayer time (House of Prayer), Abba you hit me with a ton of bricks, those profound words. I had never thought about how you might miss me, and how I might of missed you in all my busyness. I’m too busy doing all this great stuff for you, to remember that you love me more than you love what I do. After all, you never needed me to do all that stuff. You could do it perfectly, with or without me.
So, thank You. Thank You for slowing my life down, even if for just a second, that I might hear You and be reminded.
Abba, I miss You too. Let’s hang out some more k?
Ah yes there are so many things to write about BUT! I am leaving to go to BALI in just a couple more hours! WHOA. God is crazy good =)
Bali is one of those places that I never even thought I would have the privilege of visiting, Thank You Jesus for this blessing!
I’m going over there with 4 others & a baby (Baby Miah!) for a week long CMA (Christian Missionary Alliance) conference - it’s for the missionaries and CMA pastors and families in Indonesia, but the youth pastor of my church was invited (for the 3rd time) to go and head up their youth program for the week, so we’re going along to be a part of that. Amazingness =) I am so glad that we are able to go and connect with people in Indo and to be a part of their life and have them be written into my life story too.
News from outside of this Bali-Excitement-Bubble:
For the past 3 months I’ve been working at Entrance Coffeehouse & Studio which is absolutely an amazing ministry. We’ve become family in this very short period of time - love it! In title, I’m a barista, but in heart it really is family, love of coffee, and ministry. We all belong, we all have a say, we’re all partners working together. I’ve also been doing photography and graphics for them which allows me even more fun and gives me more opportunity to pour out the stuff I love to do. God is good!
The next big move for me is happening this SEPTEMBER. I’ve been accepted into YWAM Montana’s School of Biblical Studies (SBS) So excited for it, I have dreams about being there. Things are crazy =D I have to raise quite a large sum of money though to get to the states, to pay for school and to live there but God has always been faithful and I know He will continue to be so from now until the end of eternity (Good thing eternity can’t end…) More about that later =)
Look out for a Bali post in a weeks time!
Psalm 27 - Thursday May 23.
v13-14 “I am still confident of this: I will see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living. Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD.”
This is one of my most favorite Psalms ever. It is a Psalm that pretty much sums up my current walk with God, my heart, and my desire to not be confident in myself or in my own abilities - instead that I would have strength and confidence in God and God alone. None of my confidence comes from myself or is influenced by the things around me - it has to be from GOD only, who is and forever will be my constant source of confidence, strength and joy.